Because God told me to
That may sound strange to some but it's the truth. This blogging/writing/calling journey began with my very first post. It was God's idea for me to "come out of hiding", to be real and transparent about who I was and what He was showing me. I would have just a soon left my suit of fig leaves in tact..it was cozy and comfortable and quite lovely in my opinion.
Every time I sit down to write, this little voice inside my head whispers, "What are you doing? You really believe THIS is something you are called to do? You're not a writer, really WHAT are.you.doing?" So in an effort to silence THAT voice, I write. I write because I want to be brave, courageous even. You know, courage is not the absence of fear...it's the doing in spite of fear.
"Fear Not for I am with you..."
How many hundreds of times does that phrase appear in the Bible....maybe it's not hundreds but you get the point. I'm no Bible scholar, but I seem to remember some pretty big name people in the Old and New Testament being told to be courageous or not to fear, remember, guys like Moses, Gideon, Joshua, Joseph and Mary. They were to be examples to us of how big God is...we make heroes out of the PEOPLE instead of looking to their God as the hero. They were just fearing, frail humans like us who were given faith to believe in a God who would never leave them, who would fight for them and who heard their prayers and met the needs they had, no matter how difficult their situation looked.
As I write here, I don't want you to see ME...I want you to hear and see and come to know my Father, the lover of my soul, my friend and Shepherd. My desire is for you to see HIM because I'm just like you, broken and frail and fearing...a real mess!! I'm very thankful that my Father isn't ashamed of messy or broken...He's fine with it. In fact, He LOVES making beauty out of ashes. And the sooner we figure out how broken we really are, the sooner He can make all that mess something beautiful.
Ask the Spirit of Truth to show you where you're broken...you may even know already.
That's a good thing...don't shy away from it.
Embrace it!! Admit it!!
Bring it into the light so the healing can begin.
Take a listen!!