Normally, this very small segment of my morning coffee routine would not have brought any lingering thoughts, only make that poking go away. As I slowed to notice, i felt a tender nudge to connect that 30 second poking moment to what life looks like lived in relationship with others.
Many times I feel a poke in my soul, a scratch of a passing comment or a stab in a relational interaction. In the past I would dismiss these comments with the judgement that whoever made the comment must be having a bad day because what they said was just plain rude or unkind. They should learn how to be nicer to people.
As God has been leading me to slow down, to look more carefully at the ways I feel poked or hurt by the words of others, I have begun to look at the reason behind my hurt. Digging below the surface of the annoying black plastic to see exactly what is causing the uncomfortable feeling in my soul. Once I have identified what, I then ask why. Why do the same types of off hand comments cause my soul to shrink and squirm.
God is tender with my heart, always kind and Holy Spirit guides me down into the memories of my life to help make sense of the why. It's not always easy work, this sanctification process of dying and being raised to new life. But, Oh it is sweet to experience God working in me, my only HOPE of rescue. He is daily rescuing me from all the little things that keep me from living in total and complete freedom in my relationship with Him, myself and others.
The next time you feel the scratchy black plastic of what you believe to be the unkind words of someone meant to push you down, take a moment to reflect on the situation, the words, the interaction and your hearts response to what was said or done. These moments noticed can bring clarity to the WHYs your heart has continually asked throughout your life.
Be warned. The slowing is not easy. Our enemy will want you to race ahead, dismiss the scratch as someone's rudeness and push you to "the next thing". This is one of his oldest tricks, keep us moving so we don't feel. In all our busyness we can only grow in relationship with God when we slow down enough to hear his voice and notice what He desires us to see. After all, God has left us a Helper, actually Jesus referred to Holy Spirit as a "better Helper". Can you imagine a life lived with a better helper than walking this earth with Jesus?
We have such a helper. Will you join me in slowing to hear God in You, the Hope of glory,whisper tender promptings leading to the root of the weed growing in your heart. I can promise you, the rewards of this slowing, resting life will reap an abundance of fruit that will be sweet and satisfying.
Psalm 46.10
